I am still taking pictures (when time and the climate permits it) and this is my most recent one.
I have been gone for some time and like everything else that has happened lately, it all took me by surprise in a sense. It started out like any ordinary day (towards the end of April). I woke up a bit late because I was finishing up a design proposal the night before. I was working on my drafting table when the maid knocked on my door because I had a phone call. That very phone call made a very big change in my life and my family’s – it brought me to tears. One of the biggest things we dread and wish fervently wouldn’t happen to our parents did to one of mine – my mom was more than just quite sick and her sickness isn’t your typical cough or flu or even appendicitis, it is much more, so much more.
One of the most difficult things to complement these types of news is when you least expect it, when you aren’t even prepared for it, when though you know that you have to be realistic and that things like this will eventually come, you had already conditioned yourself that it wouldn’t be this soon.
I am not the type of person who is typically an open book to everybody, much less someone who broadcasts her life but I am writing this in my design journal because even though I don’t know the exact reason why, I do know that I have shared a great deal of “me” in this journal and that this is my means of updating everyone who would care to read and that this is my way of further asking for your prayers for my mom – for her complete recovery and cure.
This news has been a journey for my whole family, for my sisters and myself, more importantly for my dad and most especially for my mom. It is an ongoing battle that we continue on fighting and fervently ask God every single hour and day to win. We are all abroad/out of the country at the moment because the medical treatment necessary for my mother can only be found else where. I salute the amazing doctors that are helping my mom, they go beyond their line of duty.
When I was first given this predicament, it made it easier for me to choose fighting. I was raised by individuals who are both amazing and the best parents anyone who could ever have, they have raised me to not let obstacles be the hinder to my dreams. To be given this battle, I refuse to give up and cower in the corner and I am grateful to God that I am doing just that – my whole family and I are battling this head on.
I do miss all my usual pursuits, Cebu and even the little things but my mom is more important. I take comfort knowing that God doesn’t give us anything (may it be problems or trials) that we cannot bear. My mother is a very amazing woman – both very strong and compassionate and I am honored to be her daughter. She is one of those rare people who are designed to carry more and she has done so beautifully. This trial is something I would never wish on our family or anyone else’s but in spite of it, I am thankful to what it has given us in a sense – we are given a new perspective on life and were given each other back (in a sense). It makes you realize what is really more important in life and that everything else seems all trivial in comparison.
I do miss this journal very very much and I am not by any means stopping. My passion for interior design and being an interior designer is and will continue burning. For every now and then that I cannot post updates, I am simply stepping out for awhile to take care of my mom. Please do pray for her. Thank you.
I am still here, battle face on.
P.S. Quick update – Her next treatment is scheduled for this Monday, the 27th of June. Please do pray for her and the success of the medical procedure. Thank you very much!
